Teach me to need you more
I don't know why all of us a sudden I have felt so defeated. Like nothing I do is ever going to amount to anything and when this thought pops right into your head the first thing that the enemy does is feed it. Whether it is with your spouse, job, family, etc; every inch you give him will be a mile. All this to say, I've been praying for God to teach me to need Him more and at this moment in time I am kind of regretting it because the devil is coming after me. I'm sure it's going to help me in the future but of course I didn't know what I was getting myself into when I started giving into surrender. I remember telling Casey the other night while on a totally different topic, "when I started this I really thought that it was going to be an easy way to get ahead", Casey's response was "nothing worth doing is ever easy". I never put two and two together until now because if heaven wasn't worth it then what is the point of being a Christian....
