Why God?

Oh how I’ve been thinking about this moment for so long now. I created this page a while back and decided that it wasn’t the right time for me to start but I just kept waiting and waiting and waiting and I believe that now is the time for me to introduce the world to “The Teary Eyed Christian”, so here it goes.

I’ve grown up reading my entire life and no matter how much I read none of the questions I had about God were ever answered. Through the searching I felt so lost and discouraged, it even got to the point were I doubted if God was even real. There was this reoccurring question I had, why do bad things happen to good people? No matter how much I searched I couldn't find what I was looking for. That being said, I’m here to tell you I have the answer… there isn’t one. I know after reading this you’re not only yelling at me but also questioning why you ever read this post in the first place, well I’m here to tell you that it wasn’t a mistake. Just because you don’t have the answers doesn’t mean that you’re completely useless, this is where faith steps in. Being an absolute control freak I know what it feels like to want so badly to know, but I’ve had to learn how to let go and just be okay with not knowing.

Now when people before told me that all you had to do was “let go and let God” I was so angry with them because no one ever told me how to “let go and let God”, I wanted some tried and true way to do it! This process though looks different for everyone, you have to learn for yourself how to be okay with not knowing and trusting that the King of all Kings has a reason for keeping you from knowing. God wants to be with you so badly and He wants to know you intimately, you just have to keep the fire burning in your relationship with Him. Whether you know the why or not, there is no reason that this should keep you from spreading the gospel or learning that Jesus saves. I'm reminded of the verse in Romans, All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23). So many of us, including myself, think that we are owed peace and comfort in this world. The real truth is that God never promised we would have it easy, what He promised is that we would have His spirit with us throughout our time on this earth. This may seem kind of cheesy and useless to some people, but like it says in Philippians 4:13 we are able to do all things through Christ who strengthens us! So have faith in the unknown because that is where you find God. 

May the peace and love of God be with you always,

Leah Carpenter